Friday night was very exciting - it was the last time I broke in half my 15 mg tablet of Mirtazapine - and took 7.5 mg before I went to bed. Last night I took the other half. And thats it. No more..I hope! Obviously, I did the sensible thing of going to the doctor and asking if I could reduce the dose. Some people take much more - 30 mg, 45 mg or even 60 mg a night. But I have never had more than 15 mg. It is renown for being incredibly hard to come off - but the reduction from 15 mg to 7.5 mg seemed to go ok so fingers crossed the next transition of 0 mg will be ok too.
It is a drug given for the treatment of depression and anxiety - both of which I have carried with me for quite some time now (the two usually go hand in hand - how unfair is that?!). I feel stronger now and able to manage it without the help of the drug - I do appreciate that some people can't do this without taking some sort of medication.
I never ever wanted to take medication and fought against the doctor's suggestion but gave in exactly this time two years ago when things weren't going so well. I also took Fluoxetine for a short time, as its typically given to people with anorexia and depression - and I was quite underweight at the time - but this neither made me feel better or worse - it just didn't do anything so I stuck to just Mirtazapine. It did help a lot. Two years ago, my mind just wouldn't slow down. I was on the go all time. I couldn't sleep, eat, sit still. It was awful. Now I can sit still for long enough to write this blog...!